We all have greater expectations in life, in the official as well as in the personal front. Most of the times, we end up getting whatever we don't aim for. We still keep moving on striving to get what we wish and in the process some times, we get drifted like the boat in a sea storm.
Turning back and looking at the things that has happened in my life in the past ten years, it looks like a fairy tale. I lived life differently in those ten years which I have not even dreamt of , before 2004.
Somewhere deep inside, the search goes on and on, silently, not towards materialistic comfort, but towards a soul mate. That is what it is called as, if I am right. The search does not end that easily, it goes on and on. It rests, may be when your life reaches the end of the road.
The wave of search travels across the borders. Find a few hearts. Then it thinks it has really found one until it realises after a few months or years that its not the one what it looked for and then move on.
In this process there are heart breaks, sleepless nights, sorrowful days with tears rolling down and so on. Relationships are so powerful for an emotional person. It reduces the gleam in his eyes and increases the speed of ageing.
But we don't give up that easily, especially the ones who want to fight with life bravely. They keep moving on. If one door is closed, another door opens, always. Which really happens, when the eyes and other senses are kept open.
Every encounter seems to be real and long lasting but it is not. When the time comes to move on, when the break happens, it leaves the heart with a deep scar. The heart rejoice again when it find the next soul mate, until it faces another heart break.
What do they, the soul mate, need and what does the heart that ended with this soul mate need, is always a puzzle. The answer is yet to be found. But the beginning always looks very bright like a bright sunshine after a heavy downpour. The heart leaps in joy. But then the clouds of un certainity brings in darkness soon and the play comes to a sudden death.
Once you have started the journey of soul searching, then there is no turning back. You keep moving from one relationship to another like a migrating bird. Be in the place until the season changes and then move on to the next place. There are some native birds which do not move from place to place. They stick to a single place. Make compromises for their living.
Marriages are no longer a binding force for us, the soul searchers. We are not animals. We are not human either. We try to find a peace of mind, love, affection, care, togetherness, romance, soul partner, motherly touches etc., from some where or other. And that results in extra marital relationships with more complex life patterns.
Friend of Uma
( just a narration of what happened in my life)
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